Ministries of Thought and Stunts of Renewal

by Jason Peters on August 12, 2009 · 3 comments <span>Print this article</span> Print this article

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Williamston, MI

If the woodchuck hasn’t been dead too long, you can usually carry him by the tail and toss him into some nether region of the woods, there to be ingested by creatures of less discriminating tastes.

The first two I removed from the traps down at the barn were of this grade and quality, though none too perfumed in that dim musty air. Working the traps isn’t difficult, but it does prolong your association with the foul contagion that often hangs about the barn now that there are no horses there and therefore no reason for anyone to make daily inspections. A dead woodchuck will sometimes ripen several days before anyone notices and befoul the barn as efficiently as a live one will pillage the cukes.

The third critter had been delivered of the burden of consciousness for a bit longer than the other two, and when I grabbed what remained of him by the tail my hand slipped off the vermicular cartilage, taking with it a clump of fur. The flies and maggots ignored me utterly, as if they were grateful enough for the kill but could handle things just fine now. I fixed them by scooping up the fragrant decaying lump with a shovel, carrying it off, and heaving it lacrosse-style somewhere where a turkey buzzard would be likely to eye it. Let him fight the maggots and the flies.

I then reset the traps, left the barn open to air out in the early August breeze, and turned my eyes to other tasks: greasing and setting the height on the mower, a newish one that runs off the PTO of a Satoh tractor, purchased to replace an old 9N that was breaking the bank with its impressively consistent unreliability; trying to figure out a way to pull a set of Jacobsen gang mowers behind all that; testing this “new” tractor to see whether it is up to the task (I rather doubt it); checking on the shack in the woods to be sure it is still holding its own against the elements, the animals, and the hunters who once smashed out the sash and used it as a deer blind; hanging what new drapes and shades and screen doors need hanging; fixing the water softener, sawing up felled limbs and trees—the list, as I like to say, is longer than roll of toilet paper.

The annual summer trip to the ten acres on which my wife grew up—“annual” so long as the oil holds out or remains affordable on the current fund of capital and conscience—is never without its honest work and play. The kids go crazy with all the new-old things to do (stomping around in the tree house, going on tractor rides, badgering us to slip into town for ice cream), and the little missus gets to sleep in late—even as I look for more ways to increase and enlarge the waking hours that remain to me, what with time’s winged chariot hurrying near and all. I hold with Poor Richard that there will be sleep enough in the grave.

Making coffee this morning I saw four deer in the pasture. In the foreground, near the bird feeders, a cocky blue jay lusty for the suet scattered two goldfinches, a hummingbird, and a titmouse, and out the front window, even now in the driving rain, three turkey hens are going to try their luck at crossing this rural road. I reckon they’ll be just fine. Not a tom, jack, or car to bother them.

I have been trying for a couple of years now to complete an essay about these ten acres and the girl who groomed her horses here, to consider how the place changes—how in our absence it changes by the ministry of thought, imagination, and memory, and how in our presence it changes by the annual stunts of maintenance and renewal—and to consider what sort of life a family could make in this place when the light in the eyes of this failing American experiment, caught now like some wheezing woodchuck half in and half out of the trap, finally goes out for good.

It’s an exercise in thinking that long ago ought to have become a routine isometric all across this desiccated fly-infested land. But just now there’s a four-year-old who’s pulled himself out of bed and wants his “breffixt”—today a cheese omelet. Someday, if not of volition then of necessity, the eggs and cheese will come from animals raised right here, as the girl was, and wrought by skills recovered from God knows where.

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avatar Bob Cheeks August 12, 2009 at 5:33 am

“Well, I’m goin’ on down to Yazgur’s farm, gonna join in a rock and roll band, gonna camp out on the land and try and set my soul free…” or something like that.
But if that ten acres represents your family’s ‘place’ then you’re bound to get on it. I think, for some folks, there are certain ‘places’ we are meant to be. A holding to raise your children, to live as God intended, to take your stand.
A man don’t need much to live right, it’s making the Kierkegaardian ‘leap’ that presents the challenge. Sometimes you gotta trust the Lord!

avatar Thomas G. August 17, 2009 at 8:32 am

Sigh… I wish we had 10 acres to move back to. Alas, my family’s inheritence has been a century of chasing the table scraps that fall from the table of whatever extractive, unsustainable industry is in ascension. As the first collej ejucated descendant of the wretched refuse of half of the Austro-Hungarian Empire, I threw my lot in with the global meritocracy. The pays better than digging coal, or working in a mill, but it’s just as soul sucking. Now as a father I look at my children and wonder what inhertence I am leaving them. Will we ever break the chain before circumstances force us to? How do I break free of these rusty chains I shackled myself to, so that when their time comes they have a choice? That’s a question that I think that most of us Front Porchers struggle with.

avatar Bob Cheeks August 19, 2009 at 7:49 am

Thomas G.,

John Prine kinda said it all, find Jesus if you haven’t, blow up your T.V., get yourself on the land, even if it’s an acre, and start to building…house, garden, chicken(s), whatever you can do. Before you know it the kids are gone, “…a life of their own,” and its you and the wife, which is kinda nice but then you get grandbabies and we got to raise a couple for about five years and now their gone to Texas, which just tears your heart out…but that’s life.
Sadly, there’s no more ‘mills’ and the coal mines aren’t hiring…seems a kid can’t get a job in these parts, not a job that’ll raise a family anyhow.
So I suppose we do the best we can, seek redemption, peace, love, and God. It’s always a challenge this drama of humanity.
I’ll pray for you and yours…and don’t give up!

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